I had to make a decision that I really didn't want to make, but it was necessary for me, to be able to get on with my life, even though I didn't want the path my life was taking by making that decision. It meant I was admitting defeat. Giving up on something I had been through so much to achieve. But not reaching my goal was tearing me apart. I had to do something. I had to make the decision to either carry on and loose myself, or put an end to it and live life as I should, without this heartache.
Making the decision myself, was in some way easier. But it still hurts, deep down, when I think about it.
Its gut wrenching, throat clenching, and eye watering.
But necessary.
Post inspired by dbs at think.stew
p.s sorry if I bummed anyone out :(
Necessary. I understand. Sometimes it just is.
ReplyDelete@dbs Yep :(
ReplyDeleteDecision to do what?!...Did I miss something?! O_0
ReplyDelete@Poetess Just a bit down at the moment. Blogging out loud. I can't blog about it just yet. Still too sensative a topic.
ReplyDeleteOkay....I'm sending good thoughts though. O_0
ReplyDeletedon't you hate it when you really want to write about something because it's all you can think about, yet it's not the time yet? i'm so there right now.
ReplyDeletei hope you feel better soon & will be able to see some benefit from that hard choice.
My best wishes and many many hugs to you my liitlesprite!
ReplyDeletexo
Hugs my lovely friend along with big smooches xxxooo
ReplyDeleteNecessary decisions. You have to do do what feels right.
ReplyDeleteNot all decisions are final...
We're here.
Hey, got an award for you over at my place.
ReplyDeleteIt's tough letting go of somethings sometimes. Admitting defeat is never fun either. But, sometimes, it's the only way to salvage anything that's worth it.
ReplyDeleteIsn't it odd how life puts us in the path of those that need us? So happy to have found your blog through Antares.
ReplyDeleteThere is a light at the end. And yes I know, every time someone said that to me I wanted to bitch slap them, so slap away until you see the light.
blog hugs to you.
Wow, I don't know what it is, but I feel for you. I wish I had something awesome and classy to say, but all I've got is that we'll be here for you, no matter what it is you had/have to do.
ReplyDelete((((huge hugs))))))))
ReplyDeleteAs my friend put it today, sending you good vibes and virtual hugs!
ReplyDeleteGood wishes to you.
ReplyDeleteTO EVERYONE:
ReplyDeleteWOW.. you are all so awesome. Thankyou so much for your understanding and caring. It really does mean a lot to me. Sorry for being so criptic. I will blog about it one day, when I'm not so emotional.
Thankyou all. Love you's
Sometimes, the tears are worth the up rise afterward. Even though it hurts now, it doesn't mean that it won't get better. As that tacky, cliche always says, "Time heals all." And oddly enough, it always seems to be true. Hang in there :)
ReplyDeleteAva
Well, if you put THAT much thought into it, I am sure it was a wise choice. I wish you the best of luck with it.
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