Nov 10, 2011

Spiralling Down...

In a deep spiral of depression. My arm is killing me (I get a shot in it today) my eye doesn't appear to be getting any better. There are two spots now, and they are growing...My worst fear seems to be coming true. I can't see properly. I can't focus on my computer screen, can't draw, can't read.... can't do the things I love that relax and refresh me and throw me out of my funk. I have a 5 minute suduku book that usually takes me two minutes..last night I couldn't even finish it. My head hurts. 
I could just get over it and try to make the most of it. But right now, I choose not to. This sucks and I am going to wallow in my misery for a while.


Oh and I am going to a funeral on Saturday :(

15 comments:

  1. What a terrible tough lot you have to manage at the moment, and not to be able to read and draw and write, that's cruel indeed. The last thing you need is a funeral, but then again, funerals can be helpful.

    My commiserations.

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  2. Don't lose hope.

    *offers chocolate*

    So sorry:(

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  3. I am so sorry to hear this and I am so sorry about the Funeral.
    Is there anything else that can be done? I am sorry to probably ask such a stupid question.
    Have you called the doctor recently, I am so sorry.....I feel awful not knowing what to do /say
    xoxoxo

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  4. I feel for you and wish there was something I could do other than to offer my support and best wishes for you.

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  5. Sending you a huge hug. Wish I was closer to bring you tea and pastries. xox

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  6. @Elisabeth Thank you
    @Ant chocolate will help :)
    @Caren thank you so much. Seeing the eye doctor next week.
    @Stephen Your support is very much appreciated :)
    @Al I'll will try.
    @Nubian mmm pastries.. YUM! thank you.

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  7. WOW! Your plate is full now, isn't it?...and not in a good way. :-( I'm sending good thoughts your way, and saying no matter what comes...take it a day at a time and keep plugging along. Think of all of the people who live great lives even with many limitations. It's do-able!

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  8. @Poetess thanks and I am trying to be positive. It's hard at the moment when I am in pain and can't see, but I'll get over it.

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  9. My thoughts are of you today, Sprite. I'm so sorry you have to go through so much misery and fear of what the future may bring. Medical issues are the worst! But do try to focus on what bright and beautiful things are in your life. Even the small things. We can't always find the solutions to rid the evils in our lives . . . but no one can take the beauty out of this world for you.

    Live to the fullest you possibly can. No one could ask any more of you.

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  10. aww.. that's sweet David. Thank you so much :)

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  11. You my dear can wallow for a bit but I agree with David when he says to live your life to the fullest! Grief is a process we go have to go through but it doesn't last forever. Hugs.

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  12. I know Carole and I am slowing coming out of my funk. I even drew today:) (HUGS) back

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