|No reason, just amuses me.|
OK. Well for those of you who don’t know I am not working at the moment. Long story short, I was working in a so-I-thought secure job, when I had my hours dropped and then the boss was an asshole and so I quit. On principal. Well then we decided to do the next IVF and after that failed I was pretty devastated for a while. We had the holiday coming up in February and our son had started home schooling so I decided to wait until all this was over before I started to job hunt again. We aren’t that desperate for the money. Hubby is on a pension and so am I because of our sons’ special needs. So I don’t have to work if I don’t want to. But I do. So I have now started job hunting again. Hopefully I won’t have too much trouble getting another job. I have been in retail for years and am experienced in many areas.
Our main reason for me going back to work though is not for the money. Well it is, but anything I earn is going straight into our savings account. Because....
We are going to try IVF again!
Hubby and I talked and talked about this. For quite a while, and we have both agreed that we are going to give it another go. This time we know what to expect, how it all works, how all the drugs affect me, etc.
I know I said last year that I couldn’t understand how some people could just go back and do this time and time again. But this is the absolute last shot we have. So that is what has been on my mind lately. Job hunting and baby making. Getting the finance, getting fit, and getting “Mind” ready for it.
Yeah I know I will have to face those emotions again if it doesn’t work. But I know that I will feel way worse if I don’t at least try.
And now for another poem.
The moon she doth shine so bright
On this bitter winters night
Oh how I long to spread wings and take flight
And travel upon her silver light
Where she will take me, I do not know
To the mountains where the wild heather does grow
Or down to the moonlit beach below
To watch gentle tides ebb and flow
As fresh breath of air draws near
She softly whispers in my ear
I hear those words I have longed to hear
"Lift up your wings and fly my Dear.."